mangarap ka!

ang dami kong pangarap...sobra sinu bang hindi? halos lahat ata we want to be someone or even something (aba minsan ko na atang pinangarap na maging brief...kung bakit? as if naman di mo alam! tse!)

bata palang ako... pagtinatanong ako kung anung gusto ko pagalaki, ang sagot ko maging doctor...pero dahil sa mga stories ng hirap ng subjects, ng MATH, ng pagsusunog ng kilay (niliterl ko siya, ayaw ko atang mawalan ng kilay noh!) inayawan ko ang pagdodoctor...maganda sanang title ng blog iyon ngayon pagnagkataon...MISIZ J Ph. D

favorite ko noon ang tody with kris aquino, i even remember na siya ang tinaguriang queen of talk sa atin ala oprah, so eversince i said gusto kong maging kris aquino (ambisyosa!). dumating ang boy abunda sa dos from startalk siya dati e nagkashow na pumalit sa martin after dark, ito ang private conversations nadagdagan ng kontrobersyal at naging full pledge king of talk dahil sa the buzz.sabi ko nalang hindi na lang kris aquino kasi babae (excuse ha!) boy abunda nalang!...

ng akoy lumaki pa lalo mga grade6 or 1st yer. sabi ko i want to go to ateneo to study mass com. t magakaroon ng sariling talk show ang daldal ko kasi e...at infairness naman ngayon natupad ko siya i graduated communication arts with flying colors pa ha hindi nga lang sa ateneo pero sa Unibersidad naman ng Santo Tomas...(go USTE!) hmmm kahit medio malayulayo pa ang talk show na ito na ala julie yap daza ang magiging obb eh okay lang im going there padin.

because of reality shows na related sa fashion industry like americas next top model, project runway at mga fashion magazines like vogue, bazaar at my local fave preview, na concious me sa fshion...ngayoni started na manghinyang na bakit hindi ako nag colej of fine arts and design nagtake ng advertising na may fashion subject or nagbenilede at nagtake ng multimedia arts o kaya fashion merchandising...hay...idagdag mo papala ang na-kaulayaw kong mga designers...sarap!

i had a talk with 2 of my closest friends (we're the vekis daw) his muse, (redundant diba? muse and his?) he told me na he see me daw na mag aaral ng bag making sa europe at uuwi dito to open my own store. why not diba? actully i love bags and shoes so sana nga...change of career though not naman far, media and fashion related padin un.

nang grumaduate ako i said i wont be working either in an adver agency nor in a marketing field but i already worked for 3 weeks sa isang ad agency, now im going on my 4th month sa isang marketing company. iba talaga ang destiny diba? i never dreamed of working to these fields but look at me now?

eversince i allowed myself to be exposed in media and lahat ata ng ideology ko or philosophy sa buhay media ang isa sa mga factor na humubog nito. kaya naman ultimate kong panagarap ang makapagtrabajo sa field na ganito, kaya kahit sabihin nilang mahirap walang tulog patayan ang ginagawa e anu, magiging masaya naman ako...syempre idagdag mo pa na ma-showbiz ako.

ang daming ko ng panagarap...sabi nga managarap ka lanag ng mangarap dahil yan nalang ang libre sa mundo...

btw

may sense namna ang post ko diba?
pasensiya napaparanoid lang...

Currently...

im currently...

blogging...answering to ron's comment...

thinking

watching Iisa pa Lamang...envying how matt's dad despite of being harsh to matt still had the willingness to atleast make him feel that he is important...

thinking

i'm reading the ebook which i secretly printed in the office using, atleast, scratch papers its the now currently trying to achieve Harry Potter status, the TWILIGHT...

thinking

i'm messaging a gay guy in my multiply, we're as if friends...its because of the gladiators i tried to buy but due to bad service i refused to...

thinking

at work, i feel weak...i mean i can't surpass their expectations, is it because i'm distracted with the upcoming CHANGE?

thinking

i have a problem when it comes to finding love hmmm...everytime i see a guy i always ASSUME his the one. and ALWAYS ending up DISAPPOINTED. whats weird is...i NEVER LEARN!

thinking

i'm feeling anxious but the same time excited, i'm actually looking forward with the CHANGE thats coming to my life.

thinking

what now? im trying to be sensible (is there such a word?), more sensible so that i can be measured with the other blogger. MAHIRAP NG MASABIHAN...

still thinking...

TAMAD

alam mo ba yung feeling na para kang tinatamad?

sa anung mga bagay?! ako sa LAHAT ng aspeto...

hay... i feel so lazy... will this feeling change come TUESDAY AFTRERNOON? i'm again deciding something big for myself..its a matter of DREAM vs PRACTICALITY (is there such a word?)...

i'm confused and scared and being such... i feel so LAZY! hay...please help me pray for this...
may the creator shed me some light...

picture from alyakure of flickr.com

im pissed!

NAIINIS AKO!...

WORK

during my college years...i was known to be a hard worker that's why i became an officer, a student leader and being such i was always expected to deliver. Because of all my trainings and mentoring by my seniors i became focused and disciplined. i may not claim to be perfect but i shrived to be one in everything i do.

...that's why it pains me if i' m accused of not doing my job correctly or being careless about it.

i hate! i really do... especially if i' m just following orders... but because i'm just a follower...yet i don't have a choice...ergggh!

i'm really UPSET.

NO AIR!

I so love this song by Chris Brown and Jordin Sparks...

I so love this song lalo when SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE
contestants danced to it...

I so love this song ng sobra- sobra ng Yeng and Bugoy
both of PINOY DREAM ACADEMY seasons 1 & 2 performed it...

super beautiful melody and lyrics... hay...
when can i sing this kaya with someone?...
pag ako ay NO AIR na??! 'wag naman sana!

A DIFFERENT CYCLE

...its once again AMERICA's NEXT TOP MODEL! one of the most successful reality show in the WORLD! aba? may magcontess ba? excuse ha...bilangan na lang daw ng franchise sa iba't ibang country!

eversince it started Tyra's been advocating the idea of "comfortability with once skin" and being "true to once self" in short being BE CONFIDENT! indeed FASHION is no mercy! so one should be strong and really work hard!

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for the past cycles of ANTM, the shows been criticized for its decision of who the winners are. it started with cycle 9 winner Saleisha:

...the rule of the show kasi is the aspiring should be INEXPERIENCED or AMATEUR and without ANY EXPOSURE TO TRI MEDIA! but in Saleisha's case she's been actually everywhere. She even had her own commercial and she guested in some shows like Ugly betty and in Tyra's show: tyra

NEXT is cycle 10's winner and the very FIRST PLUS SIZED or FULL FIGURED MODEL: Whitney

...whats CONTROVERSIAL about this? hmmm well kasi she's BIG (for me she's actually normal). and the question is? IS FASHION READY FOR HER? wish ko lang may mga makuha siyang projects!

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...cycle 11 will air this September 3 and it will be opened with a 2 hour primer! (oh!! i can't wait!) so what's instore for this cycle? whats different? or should i say WHO'S DIFFERENT?! di pa man din nagsisimula! issuera na ang cycle 11 na ito! tapos na ang CONFIDENCE for cycle 9, tapos na ang COMFORTABILITY for cycle 10...now for cycle 11? GENDER-BENDER!

One of the 14 girls who will compete on the new season of America's Next Top Model – which returns to The CW on September 3 – is transgender.

"My cards were dealt differently," Isis, a 22-year-old former receptionist, tells Us Weekly exclusively in its new issue, on newsstands now.

Hailing from Prince George's County, Maryland, Isis identifies herself as "a woman born physically male."

Will she be a role model?

"I like to help people, but I'm here to follow my dreams," she tells Us.

The inclusion of Isis is being hailed by GLAAD president Neil Giuliano as "an unprecedented opportunity for a community that is underrepresented on television.

"We applaud Tyra Banks and The CW for making this historic visibility of transgender people possible," Giuliano said.

oh diba?! ay nako ewan ko nalang! so mga ate ko! here's our VERY OWN ATE!: Isis

...dipa sapat yung proof na interview? heres the video!

well lets just see, will she make it?
ay nako pag pwede siya! bat ako hindi?!

a very special person?. please stand up!

just got home from the cinema...pinanood ko na ang a A VERY SPECIAL LOVE.
NO! this is not another post just like others who reviewed, gave comments nor criticized Sarah's wig in this film...

this is just me who enjoyed the film but had a realization right after... while going home...naSAD ako...

"magisa padin ako"

I can't remember when was the last time i had a serious relationship...di ko alam kung ito'y by choice dahil busy or ito'y wala lang...wala lang may gusto. napapatanong ako minsan...PANGIT ba ko? yuck! tigilan nga ito...umeeetchos lang ako...

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pero seriously... i tried searching... now i'm waiting...hay...till when?

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when will you come? asan ka na ba?...traffic ba? sabi ko sayo mag train kana e...madami ba mashado? hmmm...taxi? sige na ako nalang magbabayad! (bayan...mamasang?) mabait ako... i don't bite! hay... when will my very special LOVE come?

DYOSA ANG CHIZMOSA

CHANGES

...since my last blog i said i want change and you'll see it happen slowly...

like in ABS CBN primetime block, changes will happen! actually there will be an addition. its the much anticipated fantaserye (fantasy- series): DYOSA.

played by my favorite ANNE CURTIS. i will not blog about the shows perse, fine to give you an idea of what is it all about, well lets just say Dyosa is the daughter of two powerful gods and goddess and she can transform into three (3) "beings" Dyosa-agua (water), Dyosa-cielo (air) and Dyosa-tierra (earth). Now her mission?...is to put things in order in her race and to find true love, but the catch is...how can she fulfill this if she just find out she is the DYOSA!?! hmmm...napapaisip? well watch it tomorrow in ABS CBN PRIMETIME BLOCK.

Now, whats my post all about? well kasi natatakot me for the show...there is no question about the concept and the ideas behind it. it fresh and something new...from mermaids to superhero to detectives and fairies now its about time...dapat bang mahuli ang i believe is the first "unexplainable" beings not just in popculture but even in every race's culture! diba naman kaya nga may units nito sa academics natin eh.

but the thing is...the fanterye is held by Direk Wenn deramas...erggh...scary! yah...after kasi of his series of seryes fantasy in particular medio joke ang nangyayari hindi nagiging consistent. he had Marina- which i believe is maganda nakakuha nga ito ng whopping 63% for pilot episode eh. (tnx to abscbnnow.com) until ng tumatagal na ito at hindi na siguro mastretch and story ayun...bumababa na ang quality. magkaron ba naman kung anek anek na names for bato at mga likido?! then came Kampanerang Kuba- original ni ate vi, naging happy kaya si ate vi? hmmm...naging musical eh...at may mga cartoons pa! hay...it was starred by Anne Curtis din and it didn't create a fuzz but dismay. now its Dyosa's turn ayoko maranansan nito ang bad fate ng 2, or in Anne's case Kuba's fate. pero basing it to its TRAILER... nake! mukhang oo ata...lets just see...

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last month ABS CBN showed the press its new and exiting shows and together with Dyosa, there are a lot of programs that are remakes like My Girl- from korea, by kim chiu and Betty lafea- from colombia, by bea alonzo. a lot of shows are promising but rumor has it...another show which is still happening and still is awaiting for its 2nd season which is a teen-drama series from the states. its GOSSIP GIRL, it's rumored to be TAGALIZED!...yes you read it right. gagawing tagalog ang GG. hmmm pasok kaya sa panlasang pinoyn ang CHIZMOSANG BABAE? and the cast are as follows:

...ngayon palang kahit walang confirmation, a lot are already
reacting about it, maraming may ayaw at nachicheapan pag ginawa daw ito. hmmm...
naalala ko tuloy un atta girls before na remake atempt ng dos sa Sex in the City,
chaki talaga nga yun, pero siguro pangprimetime ito at di pang weekends.
may take on this? well honestly, im not in full support na tagalugin din itong GG
dahil feeling ko trying hard ang magiging dating nito at masyadong elitista ang show and
to put it in a country like ours na naghihingalo at papakitaan mo ng branded stuff?
naku patay tayo dyan! di kaayaaya! pero honestly...gusto ko rin siyang
matuloy if ever, i want to see kung KAYA. and kung pano nila gagawing MANHATTAN ang MANILA. well lets just wait and see, for now mga bakla relax lang muna!

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i'm a proud Kapamilya and up to now im still praying na tawagan na ko ng HR nila para makapiling ko na ang estasyong simula't sa pul eh akoy nagnanais na makapagtrabajo.
hay...i so love PINOY SHOWBIZ!
ABSCBN multiply thanx sa pictures!

CHANGE! (Update)

...sabi ko na it will create a fuzz eh! nilagay ko lang yang pichur na yan
para...wala lang! for a CHANGE!
nabore ako while waiting some friends fit their dresses so anu pa ba ginawa ko...
edi nagfit ng palihim! 5 inches yan mga ate! imagine height ko? 6'4 na!
...and PLEASE!!! HINDI KO PLAN MAG PA-SEX CHANGE ANUH!
wait nalang kasi kayo sa pagbabago!

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i want CHANGE!

...sabi nga nila:
|the only permanent thing in LIFE is CHANGE!|
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i BELIEVE! thats why i want CHANGE!!!

...you'll see CHANGE ...Soon!

Playmate: Mirriam Quiambao?

...from MISS U runner up

now...PLAYMATE?!

...is it a WINNER?
or a RUNNER UP again?

for the Pix...thanks to Mr. Dennis Celestial

HEADLINE: UPDATE!

...Nakalabas na ko, asa bahay me...resting :)
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"MISIZ J NACONFINE!"

...nagpapagaling
...nanghihina
...kawawa

Note: buti nalang may Wifi dito sa hospital!

OO, ADDICT AKO!

scenario:

group of people nakaupo sa isang room- na medio madilim kulang ang liwanang mula sa naghihingalong flourescent light at umaasa sa natitirang sinag mula sa buwan,ngunit tama lang na magkakitaan ang bawat isa... di nagkikibuan...tahimik na nakikipagpakiramdaman sa bawat isa. itsura ng bawat isa ay talagang from all walks of life...may podium at may mikropono na konting galaw mo e titili na parang may bomba na sasabog...lowtech kasi...matagal na!

characters:

...may truck driver, typical big belly pawisin ang dating, my slutty girl wearing p-shorts in leather materials at plunging neckline, may nakabusiness suit, may mashonda lang, may isang mukhang alta na nandidiri sa kanyang upuan at patuloy na tinitingnan ang paligid, at may mga mukhang normal pero sa gabi humuihithit ng kung anu ano. may minor de edad, mudng, pudang at di mo mawaring edad...at may isang tahimik na tukling na tila kinakabahan at di alam ang gagawin, "bakit ako nandito?, anu bang nagawa ko?!"- paulit ulit niyang binabanggit sa sarili...

mga kaganapan:

makikitang may isang propesyunal na babaing nakabihis na puti, papalpit sa podium...at nagsabing...

"MRS.J?, kayo na po..."

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ganyan ko nakikita ang isang program para mga addict...bawat isa sa tin eh may kina aadict-tang gawain bagay o anu pa man...ang pagiging addict daw ay ang siyang paulitulit mong binabalikan.

droga
pagkain
sex (all forms and types)
...iyan sa aking palagay ang mga pinaka kinaadict ng tao. pero sa akin tapos na yan o hindi yan! dahil sa ang akin, hayyyy...

ngayon... may aaminin ako, aaminin ko na...lately kasi...ahm...

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scenario:

makikita ang MAALAMAT na si MRS. J na lalapit sa podium, hinwakan ang mikropono, ito'y gumaitgit...at kahit kinakabahan, nagsimula na siyang magsalita.

MRS.J: magandang gabi...err...ahmmm...hello sa inio ako nga pala ang

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MAALAMAT NA SI MRS.J

MGA TAO: hello MAALAMAT NA MRS.J

MRS.J: and i'm a...err ahgh... hmmm... and i'm an ADDICT!

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yes! lately meron akong kinaAADICT-tan hay, panu ba ito? okay fine i can do this... yes addict me sa...
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ONLINE SHOPPING!
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grabeh talaga! ang sarap mamili sa online, hay ewan ko ba,
mga too good to be true items na akala ko di ko keri, marami ding
mga good finds actually lahat naman itong mga ito got it halos sa multiply hehe
addict talaga ko! araw araw ko silang binibisita,
reasonable prices minsan mas mababa pa at unique, meaning ikaw
lang talaga ang meron! some kasi yah came from the states or wherever!

...here ill be sharing some of the items i bought and just ordered:

a. coolgadgets4sale
for my handy laptop needs...ito na ata ang cheapest laptop e...

b.myonlineshop2008
dito digicams naman...di naman kasi me mafeatures basta maganda packages and it must be either Canon or Olympus happy na akez :P

c. glamourosity
...bumili me ng gladiator sandals! nagapacustomize size akes panu ba naman dakota ang paa ko hihihi!!!

d. milbert1978
sony psp~kakabili ko palang, eh sinong wala? halos lahat meron na! papahuli ba ko? hindi! ayun nasa kapatid ko ngayon ADDICT na din! milbert has the cheapest package, i believe!

e. seafoam fashion
ang all time seller of graphic shirts ko! panalo sila sa concept at na feature na sila sa mga shows like US GIRLS and SWEET LIFE with Lucy Torres...known sila sa mga STATEMENT TEES!

f. spark and style
cheap na! stylish pa! san ka pa te? diba...from Ateneo itong sellers na to, winner ang RETRO undies, nila i just ordered and waiting for it...gay pride! from malaysia...one size fits all 20-36 size.

...hay...yes I ADMIT ADDICT na ADDICT AKO!
...atleast di nalang sa DICK ako ADDICT! tsuk!