friday night i received a text message:
"...dinner at 4pm with Jun Lozada..."
i don't know what to say but:
...saturday came...i'm one of the fortunate student leaders who had a chance to meet this person...part na sia ng history natin! sia ang laman ng dyaryo, radyo at tv. honestly i don't know what to feel about this particular event in my life (yes. isa siya siguro sa hiliyt ng buhay ko!) it's already 330pm and laking gulat ko na our building ay punong puno ng guards...sabi ko nga:
"i never felt so secure and safe in my entire life!"
hindi lang guards, my mga civilian police din...then i heard ney, csc pres. calling me and umakyat na...i'm hearing my father saying from the back of my mind while going up:
"wag ka ng pumunta dyan...delikado..."
pero dahil i know my presence is as important as everyone else. i know i should be there. honestly with the current issues happening now...di ko pa talaga alam ang stand ko...and with all this academics na hinahabol ko, i'd be honest i don't know much, baka nga mas may alam pa ang young bro. ko kaysa sakin...
4pm came and he arrived. he seats infront of me, so close that i can easily tap his back and say "hello po." pero ayako naman gumawa ng eksenang ganun.., baka mabaril pako.
he was introduced: "...our fellow THOMASIAN, Mr. Jun Lozada"
una akong reaction: MAPUTI PALA SIA AT MISTIZO. hanggang sa maging: HALATA ANG PAGOD SA KANYANG MGA MATA.
he talked about his current state yung pagiging NPA nia as in "no permanent address" kasi palipat lipat sia ng location bukod sa pag stay sa lasalle. he even told us na ang dami niang kasong kinakaharap at pati narin ang kamag anak at asawa nia'y kinasuhan na din. while he was speaking i can't help but admire yung talino nia...grabe at 42, lahat ng napag aralan nia eh parang kahapon lang sa kanya itinuro...ang memory nia grabe...that it made me think...if his telling lies dapat hindi na sia consistent and with that kind of memory wow...dapat kong malaman ang supplement na iniinom nia! kidding aside, naapreciate ko ang kanyang sinabing :
"lasalle gave me refuge but UST shaped who i am..."
marami siang binitawang salita na i personally admire yung pagiging patriotic nia. grabe he really loved our country. napatanong tuloy ako sa aking sarili kung gaano ko ba kamahal ang bansa natin...
" ...hindi dapat nagiexplain ang taong nagmamahal sa bayan, kundi
ang dapat magexplain eh yung mga taong hindi nila mahal
ang bayan. ngayon kasi baliktad...ang may mahal pa yung
nageexplain! i love this country because i'm a filipino"
...he told us his principles in life, his basing his action now sa "Philosophy of greatness"- malalim pero he explained it as if we are his children. at ng maintindihan namin, grabe ang nasabi ko nalang: "MAGALING SIYA"
now open forum started...
may mga seryoso at may mga pakwela, dating beauty queen question ba?! pero ang pumukaw ng aking attention:
"kung ikaw ang audience anu ang itatanong mo sa sarili mo?
at if you'll ask Gloria, what will the question be?"
"...will i be listening to you? listening is different from hearing...
on Gloria?...nakakatulog ka pa ba?"
syempre i didn't let this opportunity pass, nagtanong din ako...
"gaano po ba kadali o kahirap ang magsabi ng totoo?"
"in my case, hindi mahirap, kasi i want the truth to be known.
ang mahirap lang? hindi ko kasi inakalang ganitong sitwasyon
ang mangyayari, not for me but for my family"
my lozada experience is indeed an eye opener...matalino siang tao and he really knows what his saying...whether its the truth or not, our government i think found its match. i just hope that it will end soon...hindi na kasi maganda.
now ano na ba ang aking stand?
"i'm for the TRUTH"